A post for those who are weary of the struggle and the fight to keep their marriage together. Keep on keepin' on hang on tight!!
She knew the hard blow of infidelity. How it can grab the heart and cause it to shatter into a million tiny pieces.
She knows how it can wrap itself around the lungs, causing you to gasp for every breath you take. As if each one is right out of your very grasp.
Her heart has grown so bitter and hard that anger has become her favorite company. It's almost as if she stands outside of herself looking in. All around her wake she can see her family crumbling under the weight of it all.
She feels powerless, hopeless, weary from the battle that goes on daily within. She makes a brave attempt to share her story hoping someone would just HEAR HER!
No one listens, no one really wants to hear. What she has to say falls on very deaf ears. No one is really willing to enter her one messy life.
Deep within her there is this part of her that wants everything to go back to the way it was. To Love as she once had Loved. Giving all of herself to him, as if there really was no tomorrow.
She now holds all of herself at a great distance
Not giving herself fully to him. She wants to try and hold all those tiny pieces together but has not the strength to do it.
She hangs on for her life and the life of her children. She wonders how many scars they will have how many times they all will end up in a puddle of tears trying to hold one another up.
Taking her life would never be an option. She has a Heavenly Father who has created her for greatness!!
Divorce is the cowards way out! Their are no testimonies that end with Divorce. Ware fare is an ugly, horrid thing. We trudge through on our knees,on our faces at times and we come through it bruised, b r o k e n , and dis jointed.
But HE is the GOD of the b r o k e n!
HE is the GOD of the bruised!
HE is the God of the dis jointed!
She silently prays and asks God to break her where she needs to be b r o k e n.
She knows what needs to take place the wall needs to come down. He's willing to stay and he's willing to fight on his knees if he
must. Is she willing? Is she willing to take a step and trust fall into her Father's arms? Is she willing to open herself up once again? Is she willing to risk so much again? Is she willing to put her heart out there and possibly allow it to be shattered again?
She decides to walk obediently to the Father's will and entrust her heart to Him. He will Redeem what has been shattered. He will be the one to complete the two of them. To restore all the b r o k e n n e s s and help them to be broken together.
She takes the Father's hand and walks quietly but confidently.