There May Be Pain In The Night But Joy Comes In The Morning

I have been mourning the loss of my Mother. Going through the pain of not having her here to share my days. I have shed more tears in the past two weeks than I have shed in the past two months leading up to her departure to Her heavenly home. Noone can replace your Mother, or fill the void that is left behind. I cry out in the night that my Daddy give me a fullness of His Holy Spirit to endure each day that brings a mixture of emotions that are hard to deal with.
    Two weeks and three days ago my sweet baby girl was born.

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