Living To Carry The Cross, Learning To Live The Hard Eucharisteo

I t has been 4 days of him not speaking to me. I too have shut down because talking to him only leads to further frustration. I have waited long and prayed hard for an apology. He passes me with nothing on his tongue. He glances the opposite direction to keep from making eye contact. He's gone to bed angry as well as I have too.                                                                    Today, I muster up the courage to ask the hard question before he walks out the door to go to work. It might not be the right timing to talk but I want restoration in our relationship. All too often I feel as if our marriage is always in the rebuilding stage. I have n...

I  sat alone on the couch last night. Good and perfect gift was spending time in his room. Tonight would have been the perfect timing for my husband and I to spend much quality time together. No distractions or so I thought. He had walked right past me went upstairs to play computer games!                                         Could he not open his eyes to see me sitting all alone? Does he not see that it has been to long since him and I had any time together? Does he not realize how long, seriously too long it has been since he has taken me out on a date? All to many times I feel like in order to get my husband to spend anytime with me I have to nag him to do it and then it's not meaningful. He is doing it out of obligation instead of desire. I really do tire of having to compete w...

T here was a message left for me on voicemail, inviting good and perfect gift and myself down for a swim. This pregnant mommy was very tired from the day. I had a Drs. appt. to check on the growth of the baby girl that continues to be knitted and woven perfectly in the secret places of my womb. A grocery trip had been in order for the day as well. Lots of other small errands to be ran as well. I had said yes to my good and perfect gift, he just delights in playing with the children down the street.   We had walked down together and he proceeded to get into the pool with his friends.                                                  The friend that had invited us had her mother come over to keep an eye on her children while her husband took ...

Matthew 8:22 Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.                                                              These are the words that I must live by, words that I must practice daily to keep bitterness from creeping into my soul and giving the enemy a foothold in my heart. We all have them, in every family. Even in our circle of friends believing and non-believing. Their words cut deep, scaring the soul, leaving behind flesh opened wounds that are in need of His supernatural Holy healing. You hear about yourself from other sources who have talked with this person. you find things out about yourself that even you did...

e walked into the Drs. office together as a family, filled with anticipation, excitement for the news that we would hear  and the sights we would see that day. The three of us have been praying for a little girl. Even good and perfect gift desires to have a sister. His reasoning that His precious little mind came up with all on His own in His own words," Mommy , we already have a prince in the family, we need a princesss"! I nod my head, smiling at his reasoning and agree with him. The wait was not long, I had drank my water and was eagerly awaiting a much needed bathroom break. The Technician opens the door and calls my name. We walk back to the ultrasound room and take our places as if we were awaiting to see a symphony, or a play. I had brought a small shoe box filled with things that good and perfect gift could use to keep him occupied since this visit would be alot longer than our usual. I had laid down on the bed and lifted my shirt. She squirted warm jelly on my abd...

Good morning kind worshipper! I appreciate you stopping by to worship with me today. Would you join me today in inviting the Holy Spirit's prescence into your day today? Would you allow Him to work mightily in and through you today to overcome sin and to speak boldly on His behalf? Link up with my today by posting your favorite worship song on your blog. Would you stop by the post of another and worship him some more?  Take time to linger in His prescence today.                             Would you copy and paste the communities graphic in your post so we can find one another?                                    

t was my turn to have the last precious  minutes of the day with good and perfect gift. He had been bathed and read to and prayed with. It was time for him to go onto his room and settle under warm blankets. We have what he likes to call special words that we tell him every night before he goes onto sleep . We tell him that God loves him very much. We tell him that Jesus loves him very much! We tell him that the Holy Spirit loves him and leads and guides him daily. We tell him that God has a very special plan for his sweet little life! We tell him that Mommy and Daddy loves him very much!  We always say goodnight to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. We tell them  that we love them too and we blow kisses heavenward.We have spoken these words over him every night since before he was even able to speak. They have become his special God love words that he needs to hear every night before he slumbers. On this particular night I stayed until I had told him all his special...